I'm Sorry

I pray for your pain to stop and I cause you more.

I try to be there for your bad moments but I don't share those that are good for you... I reject them. You mean so much to me, but still I'm so selfish. And I'm sorry I can't help, I know things would be so mech easier for you if I just disappeared; things would be easier for everybody if I disappeared... Please don't ask me why I can't let go, because not even I know. You can say and do what you want with me, I won't complain; I won't cry. I deserve all the bad things that exist; I know it. I've always known it. And I'm so sorry I can't be more helpful...

I'm sorry and remember that I care for you...

War and peace negotiating my soul

going dark my smile

turning pale bedevilled darkness taking over

blinding powers shooting at my soul

it shoots and it shoots me

it's all a disaster killing me

one by one

beware of the gun at your head

pulling trigger

hitting

falling once again

there's blood all around

How I wish you could say

it's over now

but you'll never be free

so I just pray

that all your pain disappears
Eyes of ice tries to steal me

have to find some place above this empty seeds of sadness

makes me wish I'd never been born at all