Cold as Rain

What should I think when things seem to go wrong and then they seem to go right? This lack of balance; this desision of hiding the real intentions; this state of never knowing what to taste in your lips; this situation of always expecting for a little more warmth from you; this constant feeling of disappointment is getting me really nervous and tired. I'm patient, and I understand that we are not all the same, but still I'd give anything to feel you more open and closer to me... your friends tell me one thing and you're behaviour tells me another. I've always hated people who won't tell you what they feel; it messes everything up. I cannot guess. I haven't got a fucking crystal ball...